Never slip up, Never lose focus, Never give in.
Dinner smells so damn good tonight. but its not happening

told them i ate at a friends. what a great excuse

eatingdisorderrecovery:

New research suggests that a lack of support after stressful life events can trigger eating disorders in youth.

The event may be traumatic, such as relationship problems, abuse and sexual assault or could surface after changing school or moving.”

im pretty sure this is true for me. after the house burnt down, i fell apart

thought is past tensei am currently thinking about suicide 

thought is past tense
i am currently thinking about suicide 

my birthday is in 14 days and all i want for my big day is a bottle of pills from my therapist to make me happy
me too

me too

the-skinny-life:

bones-are-beautyy:

ddisgusting:

I need to find some really heartless person to send me messages about how fat I am.


i was having this exact thought earlier today. like…i need a real-life ana. cause shes always uin my head but sometimes thats not good enough

please? anyone?

i want one…… PLEASE

You’re not skinny. You’re a pus-filled whale. Your mom wishes she had given you up for adoption. Your dad secretly thinks you’re not really his kid. People laugh at you when your fat jiggles. You’re ugly. You’re stupid. You’re boring. The only thing you’re good at is starving, but you can’t even do that right. You’re a waste.
Laurie Halse Anderson (Wintergirls)
this is how i feel 24/7

this is how i feel 24/7

39745) I starve myself because I want to look as sick as I feel all the time.
39740) I hate eating. It makes me feel like a failure. I just can’t bring myself to say no to my family when we sit down to eat and I hate every second of it. Just being watched whilst I eat. Social pressure is actually the only reason I still do eat.
WHAT BOOK IS THIS FROM. i have to read it.

WHAT BOOK IS THIS FROM. i have to read it.

i give up. im ready to die